(a posting i made eons ago... just thot id share it again and give it a fresh perspective.)
"i believe what wasnt meant to be, wasnt meant for now"
i believe in having one greatest love in one lifetime. but finding that one greatest love doesnt always guarantee us a happy ending.
my mom's very first boyfrend was my dad. they eloped when she was 21 i think, right after she got done with college. she's never had a boyfrend right before my dad. my dad, on the other hand, i believe has had a few before he found my mom. but when he did find my mom, i guess he just knew she was the one for him. he passed away when i was 13. and even though my mom could have easily chosen to get married again, she did not. i guess part of it was her decision that we, my sister and I, would now become her priority. and she did. if u all knew the stuff she had to go thru just to put us both thru college. she never found time to fall in love again i guess. although i do believe her when she says she never thought of getting married ever again because we were her priority, i always thought that the bigger reason why she never did is because of my dad. i guess my dad was her greatest love this lifetime. and even though their love story ended for this lifetime, i guess for some divine reason, theyre still connected to one another. they didnt grow old together, i know they would have wanted to. they would have wanted to count their birthdays together til maybe 60 and beyond, but it wasnt meant to be. my mom, when she married my dad, i would assume had thought of herself as the princess in a fairy tale and that my dad was her knight in shining armor and that they'd live happily ever after. but i guess fate had other plans. when i was younger, i would ask her if she still loved my dad and how she copes with the here and now that he is not with us anymore. she would always tell me that my dad never left her, that he'd always be in her heart, and that for some reason, he had to go ahead of her so when the time comes that we all needed to be together again, he'd have a better place for us. expectant and happy. prepared. waiting.
there are a million more thoughts i want to share.
And I'd stay as strong and I'd stay as true
And you'd have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn't meant to be
Wasn't meant for now
And someday you'll see
In a place and time we never know
I'd be standing there waiting for you
how would u actually know if u found the love that you have always looked for in a whole lifetime? gut feel right? deep down u know that this person is the one youve always wanted to spend the rest of your life with. i cannot think of any other way. there arent any alarms that automatically go off once u do find that love. it doesnt work that way. its like looking thru a needle in a haystack i guess. but like i premised at the start of this posting, that greatest love may not always end happily.
im a sucker for fate.
do you believe that there is another lifetime after this? i do. i believe my mom. she always says theres never anything to lose if u believe that there is indeed another lifetime after this.
do i believe that we all have a chance at finding that greatest love within this lifetime? of course i do. my mom is my living testament to that.
do i think ive found it? yes..... and that emphasizes the point i wanted to make. i did find it. but i guess it didnt end the way i had wanted it to.
there will always be others that would come along.
other loves. its bound to happen. ive had other loves but when i compare it to the last one i had, they all pale in comparison. im not saying i held back on the other relationships ive had. im also not saying that they were of less importance to me. but the fact of the matter is, i guess, some loves are more intense, a lot deeper, a lil bit crazier than the others ive had.. and that sets it apart.
crazy love.
my mom's very first boyfrend was my dad. they eloped when she was 21 i think, right after she got done with college. she's never had a boyfrend right before my dad. my dad, on the other hand, i believe has had a few before he found my mom. but when he did find my mom, i guess he just knew she was the one for him. he passed away when i was 13. and even though my mom could have easily chosen to get married again, she did not. i guess part of it was her decision that we, my sister and I, would now become her priority. and she did. if u all knew the stuff she had to go thru just to put us both thru college. she never found time to fall in love again i guess. although i do believe her when she says she never thought of getting married ever again because we were her priority, i always thought that the bigger reason why she never did is because of my dad. i guess my dad was her greatest love this lifetime. and even though their love story ended for this lifetime, i guess for some divine reason, theyre still connected to one another. they didnt grow old together, i know they would have wanted to. they would have wanted to count their birthdays together til maybe 60 and beyond, but it wasnt meant to be. my mom, when she married my dad, i would assume had thought of herself as the princess in a fairy tale and that my dad was her knight in shining armor and that they'd live happily ever after. but i guess fate had other plans. when i was younger, i would ask her if she still loved my dad and how she copes with the here and now that he is not with us anymore. she would always tell me that my dad never left her, that he'd always be in her heart, and that for some reason, he had to go ahead of her so when the time comes that we all needed to be together again, he'd have a better place for us. expectant and happy. prepared. waiting.
there are a million more thoughts i want to share.
And I'd stay as strong and I'd stay as true
And you'd have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn't meant to be
Wasn't meant for now
And someday you'll see
In a place and time we never know
I'd be standing there waiting for you
how would u actually know if u found the love that you have always looked for in a whole lifetime? gut feel right? deep down u know that this person is the one youve always wanted to spend the rest of your life with. i cannot think of any other way. there arent any alarms that automatically go off once u do find that love. it doesnt work that way. its like looking thru a needle in a haystack i guess. but like i premised at the start of this posting, that greatest love may not always end happily.
im a sucker for fate.
do you believe that there is another lifetime after this? i do. i believe my mom. she always says theres never anything to lose if u believe that there is indeed another lifetime after this.
do i believe that we all have a chance at finding that greatest love within this lifetime? of course i do. my mom is my living testament to that.
do i think ive found it? yes..... and that emphasizes the point i wanted to make. i did find it. but i guess it didnt end the way i had wanted it to.
there will always be others that would come along.
other loves. its bound to happen. ive had other loves but when i compare it to the last one i had, they all pale in comparison. im not saying i held back on the other relationships ive had. im also not saying that they were of less importance to me. but the fact of the matter is, i guess, some loves are more intense, a lot deeper, a lil bit crazier than the others ive had.. and that sets it apart.
crazy love.
